Awww JazakAllah!! InshaAllah as long as I am able to, I will :)
JazakAllah sister :) I am glad you enjoy my blog!
Now as for your concern, It is my belief that Allah has made us all as who we are. Whether you are gay, bi, straight, trans, whatever you may be. Allah has made you that way. In Islam, having a relationship with someone the same gender as you is forbidden. But having feelings is not. As long as you don’t act on your feelings for the sake of Allah and Allah alone, then InshaAllah, the all merciful and all kind will reward you immensely! :) Keep praying to Allah and InshaAllah he will help you in your struggles and guide you to Jannah!
I am not an alima nor am I educated in this subject. This is my humble opinion, for more information visit the following blogs: partytilfajr, samiracortez. InshaAllah they will be able to help you more :)
I wish you best of luck sister, and please don’t be shy to message me :) I pray you take the Shahada soon!!
Also sorry if I replied late!